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As much as I love to write,

and as much as I should have to say about the past year...

I’ve struggled to find the words.

I’ve thought a lot about and really tried to reflect on it, and, 2022 stripped me.

It stripped me of my pride.

It stripped me of my expectations.

It stripped me of my plans.

It really let me know, that I am not in control.

Control.

Felt as if I was swept up in a tornado, of sorts, that would start to let up at times, I could almost put my feet to the ground, but nevertheless, a huge gust would pull me back into the spiraling mess that I couldn’t keep up with… I had no control.

It didn’t begin the very first day of the year, and nothing will change dramatically today.

I’m not naïve.

But if there’s anything I’m learning, it’s that any plan I could possibly make will always be overcome by the true path that my life is meant to lead.

There’s an overwhelming pull, a voice in the back of my mind… in my soul, telling me, it’s time.

These changes were MEANT for you.

Stop.

“You know I like plans, I’m a planner” ~ I’d say.

If things don’t go according to plan, panic.

Anxiety.

I had it all planned out.

Control.

People would need me. Need me here.

Need me there.

Need me now.

On this date.

Be this way.

Do this. Be that way. Can you help me with this?

Holding it all together, for everyone….

Trying to do it gracefully.

But being swept away, every. other. day.

Showing up, for everyone…

Trying to fit it all in.

I can do it.

Other people have it worse, I’m sure.

I’m blessed.

It broke me. 2022.

And,

not in the sad, needs-pity-from-anyone kind of way.

But in the way that I was meant to be broken.

Vulnerable.

To learn.

To prioritize.

To set boundaries, and love myself through every gust.

You CANNOT DO IT ALL.

Put it down.

Put something down…anything.

SLOW DOWN.

You’re missing it.

Life.

🧎🏻‍♀️

I’m not doing any New Year goals or resolutions.

I think it’s okay if you do.

Because we’re all on our journeys,

And mine… led me here.

I don’t want to hold myself to any expectations.

I want to simply live, and live simply.

I want to raise good children.

Fight for something good.

Learn and read, and write.

Do something I love,

With someone I love.

And lose all control.

I’m wishing everyone I know the best ahead.

Because, it always does feel like a beginning, doesn’t it?

- C

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